...on whether I might abandon all attempts at Christmas cheer and just re-run Christmas properly according to the Old Calendar in January.
Suffice it to say that I am majorly tired, fed up and grumpy.
I have no desire even to open my mouth to pray this evening. I will pray my psalter kathisma as promised, however, remembering those who have asked me for prayers, and trust to God to have mercy upon my hard and rebellious heart.
I am ticked off that we will not be able to make it to Liturgy and meet up with my Church family.
I am missing my brother so much.
I am fed up with the nonsense from his estranged widow which is causing grief to my mother, myself , our whole family and to all my brother's friends and colleagues as well. I cannot say more than that publically, but it has taken on nightmare proprtions and all I want to do is carry out my brother's last wishes.
Not one of my better days. God grant that tomorrow will bring me peace, and grace to make the very best of the Day.