I am writing this purely as a matter of discipline, to make myself do it even though I don`t have much to write about.
I just wish that such discipline would easily spill over into my prayer life , and indeed, life in general. I think it is time for confession again.........I sorely need my spiritual medicine.
I am finding it hard to be even remotely charitable about the dreadful end of those innocents held hostage by terrorists in Russia. I looked at the footage of the dead and wounded, in horror and such sadness.
How would I feel if it was one of my children whose lives had been snuffed out by such cold-blooded, callous and frankly, evil, acts ? I would certainly want the perpetrators punished on this earth to the fullest extent of the law, in order to protect others from their crimes, but could I wish for their death ? I don`t think so, because two wrongs cannot make a right, and because I would then have blood on my hands.
But until you are in such a position of loss, I do not think anyone could accurately predict how they would react. We all know how we would like to act, but until it happens, you just don`t know.
This atrocity has happened in Russia, but it could happen here in Britain, and it could happen in America. None of us can be complacent and think we are immune and safe.
Perhaps this horror is enough finally to galvanise me into realising that I really do need to live each day as if it will be my last, starting NOW, and to prepare for the dread Judgement Seat Of God.
Lord, have mercy........